Moments of Failure

“My friend, do you trust me? I am not a bad person; I am not a bad person. It just happened, I do not know how. I know I am wrong! I know I failed! But I not a bad person! Am I?”  

Words of desperation and loneliness I witnessed in the near past. A desperate cry, that touched me so deep from someone I knew for a very long time.

 

I am pretty sure we all come across such moments in our life. Moments, which take us deep within ourselves, and brings up those tough questions. What am I? Am I such a beast? How could I even do that or think of doing something like that? By the way, if you encounter such thoughts once in a while, its good news, it’s a good sign. You are still human! You haven’t killed your conscience and there still remains the remnant of goodness within you. The real problem is when these questions never arise in our lives. The real problem arises when we have become numb or have stopped to take a moment to look within ourselves.

But for those of us who sometimes question ourselves and find ourselves almost on the verge of loosing it, THERE IS HOPE. The hope remains in the fact of recognizing that we are failing to be an agent of goodness and love. Moments of failures are moments of partial enlightenment, those are moments disguised as great teachers of wisdom, correcting you and leading you to a path, which brings true hope and strength. A failure takes away the veil of blindness. It reveals to us true friends and those disguised as friends. It reveals to us our weakness, shows us the areas we need to work harder in our lives. It proves you and defines your character. What you do with your failures determines how well you will succeed the next time.

Now those lines do not, by any way mean that one should keep jumping into the pit of failures to learn from them, founded upon the excuses of desire, lust and selfish ambition. These vices have been proved 100 % successful in turning us humans into beasts, the most vicious of its kind.

Do not judge a book by its cover. A diamond is made from the most darkest and ugly looking carbon. The next time we are ready to point that finger and pass the verdict of judgment and condemnation remember the words of the great Theanthropos, “Let him who is without sin, cast the first stone.”